Fast heartbeats :)

I... have a new love interest now. Haha what a thing for me to say. Silly me. But seriously, I'm liking someone I just met recently. Hmmm how did I meet him? Here's the story. I was invited by a nearby school to give a talk to their Youth For Christ Camp Facilitators' Training. I asked my friend (bestfriend, actually) who's also Youth For Christ (YFC) member in our school to go with me. We both started at the same time and that was when we were in our highschool freshman year. Her name's Ellysa. :) I gave a talk about the battle we're in ---- that we're in a battle for the truth, fighting FOR and WITH God. :) The talk went well... I hope. I still do get a little nervous when talking in front of people but I think I'm improving.. I wish. Gotta gain more self-confidence. :) Then we had lunch with the other YFC members there, we didn't stay with them for long 'cause we went to St. Peter Parish where Kuya Dave, our school's former YFC Highschool Program Volunteer A.K.A in charge of the YFC in our school for two years, was. See, his mom passed away due to cardiac arrest. :( She was held a mass there and Ellysa and I passed by the church to light candles and pray for her soul and for her family.

I still remember the feeling of that afternoon's weather. It was on November 19, 2011. Such a hoooot afternoon. Ellysa lived near our school (which made it so convenient for me to hang out with her at her house haha but that's another story. I'm gonna blog on that -- our friendship --- some other time, soon.) <3 'Cause of that, we decided to stop by the school... And oh, I haven't mentioned it yet but Ellysa has a special someone in her life right now, and that is, not to brag about it, also thanks to me mehehe. :"> Anyway, when we arrived at school we met up with her guy. ;) We sat at the field and continuously can't help but pick the grass. =)))) Such a weird mannerism of people. Huuu. We laughed and laughed and reminisced and laughed. I got a hold of her guy's phone. He said it was okay. I kinda teased them a little bit by reading their sweet text messages to each other. :"> And boom, an idea cam to my head. A silly one. Since he has tons of load well not really tons meheh but he was subscribed to the unlimited calls for a day promo meheh so I told him, "Tara mangloko tayo ng mga kaibigan mo" (Translation: Let's go play a trick on your friends)

Hihihi he only had a few people on his contacts list. The others' numbers weren't used anymooore, some don't answer, there was one close friend of his who answered the call.

I said... "Hello, kilala mo ba ang may ari ng phone na 'to?" (Do you know who owns this phone?)
"Huh?"
----call ended. HE. HUNG. UP. ON. ME. =)))


That didn't go well. Harrow (Ellysa's guy) told me to go try and call P, another close friend of his.

And then... there goes the phone call that changed my life. :) well that's a little bit exaggerated haha not really my entire life but it surely did play a part on reviving my happiness. :D

"Hello? Kilala mo po ba and may ari ng phone na 'to?" (Do you know who owns this phone?)
"Ahh opo!! Si Arthur Harrow po." (Yes!! Arthur Harrow.)
"Ahhh ganoon pasaan ko siya pwede makita? Kasi naiwanan niya yung phone niya nalaglag sa jeep e, pinulot ko. Ibabalik ko sana sa kanya." (Ohh I see. Where can I find him? He left his phone in the jeepney so I picked it up and was hoping to give it back to him"
"Sa FEU po siya sa Quezon City" (At FEU in Quezon City)
"Ha? Saan yun? Nasa Marikina kasi ako ngayon e." (Where's that? I'm in Marikina right now.)
"Ayy hindi ko po alam e. Basta po nasa quarters siya. Hanapin niyo po Arthur Harrow sa FEU quarters."  (I don't know.. Just go find him at FEU quarters, go find for Arthur Harrow.)
"Quarters? Sa FEU? Kasama niya si Jens Knuttel???" (FEU Quarters? He's with Jens Knuttel?) *Jens Knuttel is a famous FEU basketball player*
"Ha? Hindi ko po alam." (I don't know)

----I don't remember much after that. I think I hung up 'cause I wasn't able to stop my laughter =))) Ellysa and Harrow were also laughing like whoa. =)))) Hayyy. I told Harrow to call P to say sorry for me =)) and so he did tell him that we were only playing a trick on him and he pretty much said some bad words =)) huuu. I sent him a text message telling him I was sorry for it and he said it was okay =))

When we parted ways and went home, Ellysa and I searched for P on Facebook. Time went by and P added Ellysa up for she was already known to Harrow's friends as the girl he loves meheh. I didn't add him up.. I was too embarrassed =)))

A month passed and nothing happened..

Then came Christmas vacation. Our classes for the year 2011 ended on the 15th of December we had our school's Christmas party the next day, the 16th. During the break, my friends and I didn't stop the communication. And so did Ellysa, Harrow, and I. Ellysa and I always chat. Harrow from time to time sent me smileys =))) then one time when I was chatting with him on Facebook, I told him to give me some chicks =))) he then told me to add P. But at first told him I was shyyy 'cause of the prank thing =)) but I added him up afterwards hihi then we... became friends. :) Hmm. That was December 21. :)

It has only been 8 days since then. But I feel like... I've known him for a long time already. :) HAHA CHEESY. The small talks became long ones. I don't know what I'm feeling. No, really.. My friends know me as a strong independent woman. My good friends know me as someone who's afraid to fall. My best friends know me as the independent girl who says she doesn't need a man but silently hopes for the right guy to come along and that I'm a girl who says I'm afraid to fall but I fall deeply in love easily and for some reason don't finish what I start..

Setting that aside, I think I like him. :) But I'm afraid to move. I've been hurt sooooo soooo many times. Huhuhuhuhu. Some heartbreaks of mine, I was at fault. Still, how can I fall in love when I'm afraid to? I think that my parent's divorce kinda molded me to be like this? I don't know....

Hmm. There's no need to rush. As God have said, "You my princess are worth waiting for" :">

That's all! I have posted this blog to say that I think I'm falling!! -___-
Right now, what I'm gonna do is to get to know him more. :) Gotta be cautious with my heart but also, don't wanna regret anything so Imma do what I wanna do :D
I don't know what the future holds for me. If I get hurt, go on. Let every heartbreak be a lesson. Remember, every heartbreak's a step closer to the right guy for you. :">
Whether this will end up badly or not, this time I won't hold back.. :)
I want to be stronger.. That's why this time. surely, this time.. I won't run away anymore. :)
Just living the moment. Enjoy what's there and make the best out of it. :)

:">

What to do...

I'm currently working on our report on Don Quixote. Hmm I actually haven't started yet hihihi I've just started with the reading part. -___- there's something bugging me. Maybe that's the reason why I couldn't focus on our report. I... have someone I like. Waaa I finally said it! -___- but I don't stand a chance. -_- shoot! Now I find it awkward to continue blogging this. I'm embarrassed haha -___- what do I dooo. Anyway!!!! (trying to get my mind off that stuff) I've decided to join the softball team!! When I go to college. :) Wherever hahaha shoot 'cause of me admitting that I have a crush on him and even blogging it (though no one from my school will get to read this) I feel so embarrassed I wanna hide inside a hole right now!!! Huhuhuhu T___T gotta stop this madness hahahha I'll do my best on my report now ciao!

Today was a fairytale~

Just got home from batch '10-'11 III-Royal's reunion hihi we celebrated our beloved Ma'am Annabelle's birthday :) hihihihi it was so much fun. :( We cried.. we sure did miss each other. We had a lot of moments that couldn't last forever, literally, but would stay forever in our hearts. :) The pouring rain got me -_- I'm so tired now. I couldn't even write down how I felt earlier. Basta all I know is I had fun :) ohh, on Monday we'll have a long quiz on Filipino all about Kabanata I-V of our national hero Dr. Jose Rizal's second novel El Filibusterismo. :) Hmmm. -___- then my classmate and I are gonna report on Don Quixote. -___- on Monday alsoooo. Whooo. So many things to do, have to accomplish a lot of things. I should go to Ateneo pa pala tom for something connected to SSC. Hmm I think it's a youth leadership conference. But I think I wouldn't be able to go eh 'cause I only learnt about this yesterday then my mom and I already made plans for tomorrow. Me and my friends would go to UST to submit our applications. :) Then after that, I think I'd go meet up with my mom. :) Hmmm it'll be a long day tomorrow so I think I'd have to get tons of sleep tonight hihihihi gotta make up for my loss of sleeping hours and plus, I cried a lot of times earlier due to some stupid reasons regarding school. Huhuhuhu anywaaaay. I'd have to read Don Quixote! That would take a lot of time.... I'm scared I won't be ready to report in two days time preparation oh, just one day! I'd only haave Sunday for that 'cause I'd be out of the house tomorrow! I'd be back but... I bet I would be tired and would just sleep -____- huhuhu I'm going craaaazy..... on the other hand, I'm quite happy.I dunno why but being busy makes me kinda... just a little bit... happy. :D Maybe because it makes me occupied? Makes me distracted from irrelevant things, maybe? Hihihihihi anywayyy whatever the reason may be, I have to work my ass off! -____-

EMED!!!

We had our EMED last Thursday 'til Friday. November 24-25, 2011. :)
Waaaa! It surely is one of the best days of my life :) I had so so so much fun! Cooperating and working hard with my team made me realize a lot of things about teamwork :D Made me stronger as an individual :"> Woooh.

November 23-24

On the 23rd, Bianca and Nicole slept over here in my house. :> we shopped for food and necessities for our trip. Then at home, we planned not to sleep. We polished our nails!! :) Bianca and Nic had neon pink on their nails while I had green. Bianca and I aren't good at it though so we asked Nic for help hihi theeen it was already the 24h of November, we passed by midnight. While eating cookies n' cream ice cream that Bianca bought, we watched the movie Amityville!! Scaaary -_____- then the next thing we did why we stayed up late is a secret.. Girls could be unbelievable sometimes. Hahaha at 2:30am I think, Nicole was already sound asleep. Bianca kept me awake 'til 4. What we planned before was we would take a bath at 3:30 then leave home by 4:30. But then again, we didn't get any sleep so by 4 am, Bianca and I kept telling each other to get up. But... I fell asleep and so did she. -__- the next thing I knew, she was shaking my body continuously, trying hard to wake me and Nicole up. I woke up hearing her say, "Uyy gising na, 5am na!" And I sat up, with an OHHH MYYY GOSHHH face -___- 'cause the call time at school for the trip was 5:00 and the bus would leave at 5:30am. Like wth!!! I panicked waaaa. The three of us bathed togetheeer. Then mom drove us to the school. We barely made it in time. When we arrived, the students were all lining up ready to board the buses. Wooooh. It was so fun =))) hmmm. Nic and I were seatmates :> I had the seat beside the window hihi yeyyy inside the bus, all I did was sleep! My friend told me I was being laughed at when I was sleeping 'cause some guys saw me while my face was facing the window.. so embarassed -___- haha anyway.. after four hours, we arrived Cavite at last! I kinda thought it would be boring... but no no no! :"> when we arrived IIRR, the place we had our EMED at, we were led to the activity hall and were instructed about the house rules of the place and told to about the things we'll do during our stay there :) then we had free time and were given our key rooms! Waaa! We felt the feeling of being in an all-girls dormitory hihihi ayuuun. After roaming around.. we were told to go back to the activity hall for some first aid lessons and stuff. While that was happening.. I... took a short nap, I guess.. hihi. Then came lunch time! Hohoho ate a lot. After eating, we were again given free time. After that, it was time for the teams to face the obstacle courses. It was a competition between 10 teams eh. I belong to the Group 6, Black Team. We didn't win but it was so so so much fun! :"> Hadn't had that much fun for a while now. :)

All the teams finished the obstacle courses at 5:30 pm. We had dinner at 6. Then free time 'til 8. That time, we had a bonfire and each team performed their presentation they prepared for the night of entertainment. Our  team performed a short skit. I was Bella. Haha laughtrip. 10pm, it rained. We went back to our rooms. In each room, there were only 3 or 4 people depending on the size of the room. I shared a room with Nicole and Ellysa. :) There was a problem... on our side of the quarters, one room was occupied by three "unknown" men -___- other girls panicked. Some said that those guys were part of the medical team but even so, Ma'am Nora couldn't take having us sleep in the same quarters with them with the place having only one bathroom. C'mon how could we stay there? So I agree with Ma'am Nora's decision.. She had us transfer to the other part of the quarters where the girls of the other two sections were staying.

November 25

I stayed in Bianca and the others' room. In there, we were eleven and slept on only 6 beds hihi it was fun :> We ate lots of snacks and made lots of confessions! Y'all know how girls are hihihi Elaiza was the first one to fall asleep. Precious and I became busy talking about our crushes =)) and I made a stupid promise that I would do something crazy before we leave and so I did but that's another story. We fell asleep before 2am. I woke up at 5am. I sat up and saw that there were only five of us remaining in the room. The others were already out and getting ready for our morning schedule. We geared up for hiking. Hihihi. Had our exercise and warm ups. Then we set off to trail. Woooo. It was a loooong and tiriiing walk but it was fun! :> The sky was so mesmerizing :) at 8 o'clock, we had our breakfast! :D We were instructed to go to the activity hall once again for the demo something blah blah at 8:30. We went back to our rooms. The beds... we were tempted by them! Hahaha I lied down my bed at 8:25. =))))) the next thing I knew was waking up and looking a my watch realizing it was already 9:50pm! Like..omg =))) I peeked at the window and saw students outside. Great. We missed the session. =)) We slept well hahah hihih then I went back to bed but Kass came in and told us that we should pack our things up. And it came to me.. we were about to leave. And that made me sad. :( So we took a bath. Ayun. We had lunch the boodle fight way at 11:30. We were eating while standing and didn't use spoons and forks. We used our hands. Precious and I finished eating faster than the other girls. We carried out our plan of.. yeaaa haha. And soooo, my secret mission was accomplished. Hihihihi after that, we went to our rooms and took our stuff out and were ready to leave the place :( for the last time, we went to the activity hall. Said goodbyes to the staff of the place and were ready to go visit FEU Silang. :) There, we interacted with the students. It was amazing! The students there were really friendly. They gave us a tour of the school. The school only had 'til 3rd year highschool though, I wonder why that is. Hmm anyway, I enjoyed myself there. :) At 3:15pm we were on our way home. :) :((( Arrived school at about 6:30 pm. Waited with Precious at school for my lil sister Alexa's arrival from their fieldtrip. Was back home at 8. :)


I realized and learned a lot of things during the trip. :) I was able to become closer with my batchmates :) made new friends and made stronger bonds with my bestfriends :"> It was a life changing experience for me. :) I can't stop thinking that I wanna repeat it again.. and then if I would be able to repeat it, I would treasure every second of it and won't waste any time. :(
Moments like those are moments you'd want to last longer than it should :'( Hihihi thank You Lord God wor that awesome awesome experience. :) You are such an awesome awesome God! :-*

Hihih looking forward to Monday :)

Tomorrow's another day.

Just got home with my family from the grocery store. I'm worn out. We bought food necessities 'cause classes resume tomorrow. Waaaa. I'm excited to learn new stuff again. (Woah, really? I am?) Haha. I wanna see my friends!! :) But I also want the sembreak to last longer. Hihihi as much as I want to study and to be with my friends, I still wanna stay at hoooome and read manga all day and night~ Hohoho. Dinner on the table is waiting for me. I'm full. I ate shawarma then after I finished eating it, ate bread roll then ice cream. It sure is nice to eat lots especially when the money you're using ain't yours. Hahaaaa. Okaaay~ Tonight's the last night to savor the sembreak happiness. K. -___- Bye bye sleepless nights and all-day sleeps!! :'(

College??? College!!!!

I still don't wanna think about leaving highschool but of course I have to think carefully about my future and of what course am I gonna take up. But... I'm not even sure yet of what school am I gonna go to. What if I don't pass University of the Philippines? I took the exam last August 6 and the results would come out on February. I'm so nervous about the results of my hard work. I wasn't able to give it my best shot but still, I tried hard. If I don't pass the UP exam, I hope I'd be able to get into the University of Santo Tomas (UST). I'd also take the entrance exam for Miriam College. The courses I chose were Biology and Special Education. Last September, when our grandfather stayed here in our house for almost 2 weeks (he lives in Negros Occidental together with our other relatives), I kinda woke up one day, stopped in front of our bookshelf filled with mostly law-related books, and said to myself, "I think... I wanna become a lawyer." I kept this to myself. Then on a Sunday of the first week of his stay here, we went to church together. I felt happy to have gone to church with someone again. Because I used to go with my sister, Raizza. She got pregnant so those days, I always went alone. Now that her baby, Kassie, is 3 months old already, she still doesn't go to church. We rarely go as a family anymore and that makes me sad :( so I now find it hard to go alone.. but I shouldn't feel that way. It's wrong, I know. That's why I've decided I'll go tomorrow! Alone or not, I will. :) Anyway, going back to when I was with my grandpa.. on the way home from church which was only a two-minute walk from home, I told him about the thought I ad of wanting to become a lawyer. Then he cheered me on. :) He said it'll be great if I did. And so yeaaa. I'm thinking about it. My mom said she'll also cheer me on. She always does. :) I don't know. I still don't know what I'd be taking up for sure. Biology, Special Education, or Law or any other course.. I have no exact idea. But.. whatever it will be.. I promise to do my best 'til the end! :) I will face my college life head on! :) 5 more months 'til I graduaaate from highschool :D

I am now a 16 year old girl. :)

  We celebrated my 16th birthday today. Mom's such a great cook, the best in the world for me! I am so full. I sure did eat a lot!! My tummy gets bigger and bigger every single day. Haha. Hmm.. It sure is tiring to eat. When I eat a lot, I feel sleepy afterwards. Hoho so now I aaaam sooo tired and my eyes are gonna close. But! I don't wanna sleep yet. I wanna stay awake 'til my birthday ends. :) Becuzzz today's special! I am a lady now! (or so I think) =)))) I'm so glad I have such an amazing family and tons of real friends! :) Thank You, Lord God for Your undying love and for the never ending blessing you give me! :) Ahhhh~ Only 5 months left 'til I leave highschool. :( I'm not ready yet... I don't wanna leave my highschool life :( k, so dramatic haha but really. I swear, the remaining days, I'll make each day memorable and I'll do what I wanna do 'cause I don't wanna regret anything :) anywayyyy! Happy 16th birthday, me! :)