College??? College!!!!

I still don't wanna think about leaving highschool but of course I have to think carefully about my future and of what course am I gonna take up. But... I'm not even sure yet of what school am I gonna go to. What if I don't pass University of the Philippines? I took the exam last August 6 and the results would come out on February. I'm so nervous about the results of my hard work. I wasn't able to give it my best shot but still, I tried hard. If I don't pass the UP exam, I hope I'd be able to get into the University of Santo Tomas (UST). I'd also take the entrance exam for Miriam College. The courses I chose were Biology and Special Education. Last September, when our grandfather stayed here in our house for almost 2 weeks (he lives in Negros Occidental together with our other relatives), I kinda woke up one day, stopped in front of our bookshelf filled with mostly law-related books, and said to myself, "I think... I wanna become a lawyer." I kept this to myself. Then on a Sunday of the first week of his stay here, we went to church together. I felt happy to have gone to church with someone again. Because I used to go with my sister, Raizza. She got pregnant so those days, I always went alone. Now that her baby, Kassie, is 3 months old already, she still doesn't go to church. We rarely go as a family anymore and that makes me sad :( so I now find it hard to go alone.. but I shouldn't feel that way. It's wrong, I know. That's why I've decided I'll go tomorrow! Alone or not, I will. :) Anyway, going back to when I was with my grandpa.. on the way home from church which was only a two-minute walk from home, I told him about the thought I ad of wanting to become a lawyer. Then he cheered me on. :) He said it'll be great if I did. And so yeaaa. I'm thinking about it. My mom said she'll also cheer me on. She always does. :) I don't know. I still don't know what I'd be taking up for sure. Biology, Special Education, or Law or any other course.. I have no exact idea. But.. whatever it will be.. I promise to do my best 'til the end! :) I will face my college life head on! :) 5 more months 'til I graduaaate from highschool :D