Fast heartbeats :)

I... have a new love interest now. Haha what a thing for me to say. Silly me. But seriously, I'm liking someone I just met recently. Hmmm how did I meet him? Here's the story. I was invited by a nearby school to give a talk to their Youth For Christ Camp Facilitators' Training. I asked my friend (bestfriend, actually) who's also Youth For Christ (YFC) member in our school to go with me. We both started at the same time and that was when we were in our highschool freshman year. Her name's Ellysa. :) I gave a talk about the battle we're in ---- that we're in a battle for the truth, fighting FOR and WITH God. :) The talk went well... I hope. I still do get a little nervous when talking in front of people but I think I'm improving.. I wish. Gotta gain more self-confidence. :) Then we had lunch with the other YFC members there, we didn't stay with them for long 'cause we went to St. Peter Parish where Kuya Dave, our school's former YFC Highschool Program Volunteer A.K.A in charge of the YFC in our school for two years, was. See, his mom passed away due to cardiac arrest. :( She was held a mass there and Ellysa and I passed by the church to light candles and pray for her soul and for her family.

I still remember the feeling of that afternoon's weather. It was on November 19, 2011. Such a hoooot afternoon. Ellysa lived near our school (which made it so convenient for me to hang out with her at her house haha but that's another story. I'm gonna blog on that -- our friendship --- some other time, soon.) <3 'Cause of that, we decided to stop by the school... And oh, I haven't mentioned it yet but Ellysa has a special someone in her life right now, and that is, not to brag about it, also thanks to me mehehe. :"> Anyway, when we arrived at school we met up with her guy. ;) We sat at the field and continuously can't help but pick the grass. =)))) Such a weird mannerism of people. Huuu. We laughed and laughed and reminisced and laughed. I got a hold of her guy's phone. He said it was okay. I kinda teased them a little bit by reading their sweet text messages to each other. :"> And boom, an idea cam to my head. A silly one. Since he has tons of load well not really tons meheh but he was subscribed to the unlimited calls for a day promo meheh so I told him, "Tara mangloko tayo ng mga kaibigan mo" (Translation: Let's go play a trick on your friends)

Hihihi he only had a few people on his contacts list. The others' numbers weren't used anymooore, some don't answer, there was one close friend of his who answered the call.

I said... "Hello, kilala mo ba ang may ari ng phone na 'to?" (Do you know who owns this phone?)
"Huh?"
----call ended. HE. HUNG. UP. ON. ME. =)))


That didn't go well. Harrow (Ellysa's guy) told me to go try and call P, another close friend of his.

And then... there goes the phone call that changed my life. :) well that's a little bit exaggerated haha not really my entire life but it surely did play a part on reviving my happiness. :D

"Hello? Kilala mo po ba and may ari ng phone na 'to?" (Do you know who owns this phone?)
"Ahh opo!! Si Arthur Harrow po." (Yes!! Arthur Harrow.)
"Ahhh ganoon pasaan ko siya pwede makita? Kasi naiwanan niya yung phone niya nalaglag sa jeep e, pinulot ko. Ibabalik ko sana sa kanya." (Ohh I see. Where can I find him? He left his phone in the jeepney so I picked it up and was hoping to give it back to him"
"Sa FEU po siya sa Quezon City" (At FEU in Quezon City)
"Ha? Saan yun? Nasa Marikina kasi ako ngayon e." (Where's that? I'm in Marikina right now.)
"Ayy hindi ko po alam e. Basta po nasa quarters siya. Hanapin niyo po Arthur Harrow sa FEU quarters."  (I don't know.. Just go find him at FEU quarters, go find for Arthur Harrow.)
"Quarters? Sa FEU? Kasama niya si Jens Knuttel???" (FEU Quarters? He's with Jens Knuttel?) *Jens Knuttel is a famous FEU basketball player*
"Ha? Hindi ko po alam." (I don't know)

----I don't remember much after that. I think I hung up 'cause I wasn't able to stop my laughter =))) Ellysa and Harrow were also laughing like whoa. =)))) Hayyy. I told Harrow to call P to say sorry for me =)) and so he did tell him that we were only playing a trick on him and he pretty much said some bad words =)) huuu. I sent him a text message telling him I was sorry for it and he said it was okay =))

When we parted ways and went home, Ellysa and I searched for P on Facebook. Time went by and P added Ellysa up for she was already known to Harrow's friends as the girl he loves meheh. I didn't add him up.. I was too embarrassed =)))

A month passed and nothing happened..

Then came Christmas vacation. Our classes for the year 2011 ended on the 15th of December we had our school's Christmas party the next day, the 16th. During the break, my friends and I didn't stop the communication. And so did Ellysa, Harrow, and I. Ellysa and I always chat. Harrow from time to time sent me smileys =))) then one time when I was chatting with him on Facebook, I told him to give me some chicks =))) he then told me to add P. But at first told him I was shyyy 'cause of the prank thing =)) but I added him up afterwards hihi then we... became friends. :) Hmm. That was December 21. :)

It has only been 8 days since then. But I feel like... I've known him for a long time already. :) HAHA CHEESY. The small talks became long ones. I don't know what I'm feeling. No, really.. My friends know me as a strong independent woman. My good friends know me as someone who's afraid to fall. My best friends know me as the independent girl who says she doesn't need a man but silently hopes for the right guy to come along and that I'm a girl who says I'm afraid to fall but I fall deeply in love easily and for some reason don't finish what I start..

Setting that aside, I think I like him. :) But I'm afraid to move. I've been hurt sooooo soooo many times. Huhuhuhuhu. Some heartbreaks of mine, I was at fault. Still, how can I fall in love when I'm afraid to? I think that my parent's divorce kinda molded me to be like this? I don't know....

Hmm. There's no need to rush. As God have said, "You my princess are worth waiting for" :">

That's all! I have posted this blog to say that I think I'm falling!! -___-
Right now, what I'm gonna do is to get to know him more. :) Gotta be cautious with my heart but also, don't wanna regret anything so Imma do what I wanna do :D
I don't know what the future holds for me. If I get hurt, go on. Let every heartbreak be a lesson. Remember, every heartbreak's a step closer to the right guy for you. :">
Whether this will end up badly or not, this time I won't hold back.. :)
I want to be stronger.. That's why this time. surely, this time.. I won't run away anymore. :)
Just living the moment. Enjoy what's there and make the best out of it. :)

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