Last February 4, I found out that P was still saying words like I love you to the girl whom I thought was her "past" girl. Seems like there wasn't any "past" 'cause "they" were never finished. Get me? While he was saying he loves me, he was also saying it to the girl he loved first. Whoa. :) Theeeere goes my heart. I was so devastated. And the sad part is, he didn't tell me. I just found out. Imagine what would happen if I didn't find out! Magmumukha pa rin akong tanga. I was such a fool. I told him soooo many times to choose the other girl over me, right? 'Cause I knew he would be so much happier with her. I pushed him to choose her so many times before... Why didn't he just admit it then? He told me "I choose you" what the hell man! He should've said so in the beginning!!! I'm not regretting meeting and falling in love him, though. But I regret trusting him. He crushed my trust. That made me swear not to fall in love again. I knew this would happen! Times and times before I was hurt so many times. Before meeting him, I already swore not to love again. When I met him, I tried hard I really did try hard not to like him. But I came to like him... When I liked him, I stopped myself from falling. But I wasn't able to... He said the three words first on January 1st. He made my new year happy... Never knew he would make it devastating. When I fell for him, he said he caught me. Time and time again he told me he loves me. Whoaaaa. I never knew he would treat me that way. While I was so happy thinking he loves only me, there he goes also saying it to another girl. Is there any generous man these days?!?!?! -_____- Anyway... I thought I wouldn't be able to go through it. :( Really, I cried myself to sleep even at school, I wasn't able to stop my tears from flowing for a whole week. Now I promise myself I won't cry anymore. :) Meheh. :) Thank You For The Broken Heart. :) Know that song? I dedicate it to him. :) Woooo.
I'm currently happy. :) 'Cause God, my family, and my friends didn't and won't ever leave me. :)
And!!! For the first time, I'll be having a sweet Valentine's this year!! :""""> last night, the super super handsooome crush of mine (four years younger than me though HAHAHA) asked me to be his Valentine :"> and I saiiiid yes. Hahaha :"> I'm so nervous!! Please pray for me =)))
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