Only a few hours left.

In less than 2 hours, it'll already be year 2012!! Hihihi so excited to make changes in my life. I'll do my best to be  a better person. Hmm just a while ago I wrote stuffs I regret, the bad things I did, and the names of the boys I wanna forget (well it's just the sad memories I want to forget naman) on a paper. Then later at 12am, I'll burn that paper. Burn baby burn HAHAHA. -___-  Ayooon. I found out that P hasn't gotten over his past girl yet. The one who broke his heart. Can't be helped, of course it takes a long time for one to move on. :D But I just want him to know and I want him to feel that I'll always be here for him :) meheh I wanna bring back his happiness. :) I wanna be the reason of his smiling face. :) Mehehe I'm so emotional =))) uhmm. I have to study really hard!! Especially now that I'm not yet sure of where I'd go study for college. They say the results for the UPCAT will be released on January 3... Not sure though, was just a rumor I think.But if it is true, then it's better. 'Cause the earlier I'll know if I pass or not, the earlier I'll be able to make further plans for my future. :) Hihihi. I hope I passed!! *fingers crossed* and... I want YFC FEU-FERN to be productive this coming new year. :) I really wanna introduce and bring students closer to Him, our Creator. Meheh :D And oh.. I hope that my family won't get into fights with each other anymore :( at the moment, one of my sisters aren't in good terms with my mom and with my other sister still (the two of them haven't been in good terms for about 2 years now) -__- when will we all be okay :( I hope everything's gonna be alright and that we will all be creating tighter bonds on 2012 and for the years to come. :)

Hihihi ohh I just wanna say I miss P. =)))

this was during our first Skype video call convo meheh


ohh only an hour and a half left!! :) Thank you, Lord God, for everything!! I love You! :)

In another life, I would be your girl ♥

Haluuuu :) While writing the post I published last night, I was actually chatting with him, P. Hihihihi. After the chat on Facebook, we tried video calling via Skype hahaha we were so nervous at first -___- he even hid himself behind a pillow while hugging it. I even told him how I wished I could be his pillow :( HAHAHAHAHA. Anywayyy... it wasn't awkward at all. We were both just so shyyyy. =)) It was the first time we did that though we already talked on the phone meheh. The video call lasted for 2 hours and 23 (?) minutes hihihi :"> Weee talked about a lot of things hihi I showed him some hand tricks of mine (most were failures) haha he showed me a picture of him from years ago when he was still baby P. Hahaha I'm gonna post a picture of our video call (thanks to printscreen) haha he told me not to upload though....on Facebook. Sooo uploading it here might not be bad right? Hahaha :) He looks like Macaulay Culkin =))

I kinda told him I look like Angelina Jolie :) HAHAHA I was only kidding, obviously -___-
hihihihi our convo ended at 3:05 am hihi that's why I woke up at 1pm =))
Byeeee :)


*And I don't know why I chose the lyrics from The One That Got Away as the title of this post :| =))

Fast heartbeats :)

I... have a new love interest now. Haha what a thing for me to say. Silly me. But seriously, I'm liking someone I just met recently. Hmmm how did I meet him? Here's the story. I was invited by a nearby school to give a talk to their Youth For Christ Camp Facilitators' Training. I asked my friend (bestfriend, actually) who's also Youth For Christ (YFC) member in our school to go with me. We both started at the same time and that was when we were in our highschool freshman year. Her name's Ellysa. :) I gave a talk about the battle we're in ---- that we're in a battle for the truth, fighting FOR and WITH God. :) The talk went well... I hope. I still do get a little nervous when talking in front of people but I think I'm improving.. I wish. Gotta gain more self-confidence. :) Then we had lunch with the other YFC members there, we didn't stay with them for long 'cause we went to St. Peter Parish where Kuya Dave, our school's former YFC Highschool Program Volunteer A.K.A in charge of the YFC in our school for two years, was. See, his mom passed away due to cardiac arrest. :( She was held a mass there and Ellysa and I passed by the church to light candles and pray for her soul and for her family.

I still remember the feeling of that afternoon's weather. It was on November 19, 2011. Such a hoooot afternoon. Ellysa lived near our school (which made it so convenient for me to hang out with her at her house haha but that's another story. I'm gonna blog on that -- our friendship --- some other time, soon.) <3 'Cause of that, we decided to stop by the school... And oh, I haven't mentioned it yet but Ellysa has a special someone in her life right now, and that is, not to brag about it, also thanks to me mehehe. :"> Anyway, when we arrived at school we met up with her guy. ;) We sat at the field and continuously can't help but pick the grass. =)))) Such a weird mannerism of people. Huuu. We laughed and laughed and reminisced and laughed. I got a hold of her guy's phone. He said it was okay. I kinda teased them a little bit by reading their sweet text messages to each other. :"> And boom, an idea cam to my head. A silly one. Since he has tons of load well not really tons meheh but he was subscribed to the unlimited calls for a day promo meheh so I told him, "Tara mangloko tayo ng mga kaibigan mo" (Translation: Let's go play a trick on your friends)

Hihihi he only had a few people on his contacts list. The others' numbers weren't used anymooore, some don't answer, there was one close friend of his who answered the call.

I said... "Hello, kilala mo ba ang may ari ng phone na 'to?" (Do you know who owns this phone?)
"Huh?"
----call ended. HE. HUNG. UP. ON. ME. =)))


That didn't go well. Harrow (Ellysa's guy) told me to go try and call P, another close friend of his.

And then... there goes the phone call that changed my life. :) well that's a little bit exaggerated haha not really my entire life but it surely did play a part on reviving my happiness. :D

"Hello? Kilala mo po ba and may ari ng phone na 'to?" (Do you know who owns this phone?)
"Ahh opo!! Si Arthur Harrow po." (Yes!! Arthur Harrow.)
"Ahhh ganoon pasaan ko siya pwede makita? Kasi naiwanan niya yung phone niya nalaglag sa jeep e, pinulot ko. Ibabalik ko sana sa kanya." (Ohh I see. Where can I find him? He left his phone in the jeepney so I picked it up and was hoping to give it back to him"
"Sa FEU po siya sa Quezon City" (At FEU in Quezon City)
"Ha? Saan yun? Nasa Marikina kasi ako ngayon e." (Where's that? I'm in Marikina right now.)
"Ayy hindi ko po alam e. Basta po nasa quarters siya. Hanapin niyo po Arthur Harrow sa FEU quarters."  (I don't know.. Just go find him at FEU quarters, go find for Arthur Harrow.)
"Quarters? Sa FEU? Kasama niya si Jens Knuttel???" (FEU Quarters? He's with Jens Knuttel?) *Jens Knuttel is a famous FEU basketball player*
"Ha? Hindi ko po alam." (I don't know)

----I don't remember much after that. I think I hung up 'cause I wasn't able to stop my laughter =))) Ellysa and Harrow were also laughing like whoa. =)))) Hayyy. I told Harrow to call P to say sorry for me =)) and so he did tell him that we were only playing a trick on him and he pretty much said some bad words =)) huuu. I sent him a text message telling him I was sorry for it and he said it was okay =))

When we parted ways and went home, Ellysa and I searched for P on Facebook. Time went by and P added Ellysa up for she was already known to Harrow's friends as the girl he loves meheh. I didn't add him up.. I was too embarrassed =)))

A month passed and nothing happened..

Then came Christmas vacation. Our classes for the year 2011 ended on the 15th of December we had our school's Christmas party the next day, the 16th. During the break, my friends and I didn't stop the communication. And so did Ellysa, Harrow, and I. Ellysa and I always chat. Harrow from time to time sent me smileys =))) then one time when I was chatting with him on Facebook, I told him to give me some chicks =))) he then told me to add P. But at first told him I was shyyy 'cause of the prank thing =)) but I added him up afterwards hihi then we... became friends. :) Hmm. That was December 21. :)

It has only been 8 days since then. But I feel like... I've known him for a long time already. :) HAHA CHEESY. The small talks became long ones. I don't know what I'm feeling. No, really.. My friends know me as a strong independent woman. My good friends know me as someone who's afraid to fall. My best friends know me as the independent girl who says she doesn't need a man but silently hopes for the right guy to come along and that I'm a girl who says I'm afraid to fall but I fall deeply in love easily and for some reason don't finish what I start..

Setting that aside, I think I like him. :) But I'm afraid to move. I've been hurt sooooo soooo many times. Huhuhuhuhu. Some heartbreaks of mine, I was at fault. Still, how can I fall in love when I'm afraid to? I think that my parent's divorce kinda molded me to be like this? I don't know....

Hmm. There's no need to rush. As God have said, "You my princess are worth waiting for" :">

That's all! I have posted this blog to say that I think I'm falling!! -___-
Right now, what I'm gonna do is to get to know him more. :) Gotta be cautious with my heart but also, don't wanna regret anything so Imma do what I wanna do :D
I don't know what the future holds for me. If I get hurt, go on. Let every heartbreak be a lesson. Remember, every heartbreak's a step closer to the right guy for you. :">
Whether this will end up badly or not, this time I won't hold back.. :)
I want to be stronger.. That's why this time. surely, this time.. I won't run away anymore. :)
Just living the moment. Enjoy what's there and make the best out of it. :)

:">

What to do...

I'm currently working on our report on Don Quixote. Hmm I actually haven't started yet hihihi I've just started with the reading part. -___- there's something bugging me. Maybe that's the reason why I couldn't focus on our report. I... have someone I like. Waaa I finally said it! -___- but I don't stand a chance. -_- shoot! Now I find it awkward to continue blogging this. I'm embarrassed haha -___- what do I dooo. Anyway!!!! (trying to get my mind off that stuff) I've decided to join the softball team!! When I go to college. :) Wherever hahaha shoot 'cause of me admitting that I have a crush on him and even blogging it (though no one from my school will get to read this) I feel so embarrassed I wanna hide inside a hole right now!!! Huhuhuhu T___T gotta stop this madness hahahha I'll do my best on my report now ciao!

Today was a fairytale~

Just got home from batch '10-'11 III-Royal's reunion hihi we celebrated our beloved Ma'am Annabelle's birthday :) hihihihi it was so much fun. :( We cried.. we sure did miss each other. We had a lot of moments that couldn't last forever, literally, but would stay forever in our hearts. :) The pouring rain got me -_- I'm so tired now. I couldn't even write down how I felt earlier. Basta all I know is I had fun :) ohh, on Monday we'll have a long quiz on Filipino all about Kabanata I-V of our national hero Dr. Jose Rizal's second novel El Filibusterismo. :) Hmmm. -___- then my classmate and I are gonna report on Don Quixote. -___- on Monday alsoooo. Whooo. So many things to do, have to accomplish a lot of things. I should go to Ateneo pa pala tom for something connected to SSC. Hmm I think it's a youth leadership conference. But I think I wouldn't be able to go eh 'cause I only learnt about this yesterday then my mom and I already made plans for tomorrow. Me and my friends would go to UST to submit our applications. :) Then after that, I think I'd go meet up with my mom. :) Hmmm it'll be a long day tomorrow so I think I'd have to get tons of sleep tonight hihihihi gotta make up for my loss of sleeping hours and plus, I cried a lot of times earlier due to some stupid reasons regarding school. Huhuhuhu anywaaaay. I'd have to read Don Quixote! That would take a lot of time.... I'm scared I won't be ready to report in two days time preparation oh, just one day! I'd only haave Sunday for that 'cause I'd be out of the house tomorrow! I'd be back but... I bet I would be tired and would just sleep -____- huhuhu I'm going craaaazy..... on the other hand, I'm quite happy.I dunno why but being busy makes me kinda... just a little bit... happy. :D Maybe because it makes me occupied? Makes me distracted from irrelevant things, maybe? Hihihihihi anywayyy whatever the reason may be, I have to work my ass off! -____-

EMED!!!

We had our EMED last Thursday 'til Friday. November 24-25, 2011. :)
Waaaa! It surely is one of the best days of my life :) I had so so so much fun! Cooperating and working hard with my team made me realize a lot of things about teamwork :D Made me stronger as an individual :"> Woooh.

November 23-24

On the 23rd, Bianca and Nicole slept over here in my house. :> we shopped for food and necessities for our trip. Then at home, we planned not to sleep. We polished our nails!! :) Bianca and Nic had neon pink on their nails while I had green. Bianca and I aren't good at it though so we asked Nic for help hihi theeen it was already the 24h of November, we passed by midnight. While eating cookies n' cream ice cream that Bianca bought, we watched the movie Amityville!! Scaaary -_____- then the next thing we did why we stayed up late is a secret.. Girls could be unbelievable sometimes. Hahaha at 2:30am I think, Nicole was already sound asleep. Bianca kept me awake 'til 4. What we planned before was we would take a bath at 3:30 then leave home by 4:30. But then again, we didn't get any sleep so by 4 am, Bianca and I kept telling each other to get up. But... I fell asleep and so did she. -__- the next thing I knew, she was shaking my body continuously, trying hard to wake me and Nicole up. I woke up hearing her say, "Uyy gising na, 5am na!" And I sat up, with an OHHH MYYY GOSHHH face -___- 'cause the call time at school for the trip was 5:00 and the bus would leave at 5:30am. Like wth!!! I panicked waaaa. The three of us bathed togetheeer. Then mom drove us to the school. We barely made it in time. When we arrived, the students were all lining up ready to board the buses. Wooooh. It was so fun =))) hmmm. Nic and I were seatmates :> I had the seat beside the window hihi yeyyy inside the bus, all I did was sleep! My friend told me I was being laughed at when I was sleeping 'cause some guys saw me while my face was facing the window.. so embarassed -___- haha anyway.. after four hours, we arrived Cavite at last! I kinda thought it would be boring... but no no no! :"> when we arrived IIRR, the place we had our EMED at, we were led to the activity hall and were instructed about the house rules of the place and told to about the things we'll do during our stay there :) then we had free time and were given our key rooms! Waaa! We felt the feeling of being in an all-girls dormitory hihihi ayuuun. After roaming around.. we were told to go back to the activity hall for some first aid lessons and stuff. While that was happening.. I... took a short nap, I guess.. hihi. Then came lunch time! Hohoho ate a lot. After eating, we were again given free time. After that, it was time for the teams to face the obstacle courses. It was a competition between 10 teams eh. I belong to the Group 6, Black Team. We didn't win but it was so so so much fun! :"> Hadn't had that much fun for a while now. :)

All the teams finished the obstacle courses at 5:30 pm. We had dinner at 6. Then free time 'til 8. That time, we had a bonfire and each team performed their presentation they prepared for the night of entertainment. Our  team performed a short skit. I was Bella. Haha laughtrip. 10pm, it rained. We went back to our rooms. In each room, there were only 3 or 4 people depending on the size of the room. I shared a room with Nicole and Ellysa. :) There was a problem... on our side of the quarters, one room was occupied by three "unknown" men -___- other girls panicked. Some said that those guys were part of the medical team but even so, Ma'am Nora couldn't take having us sleep in the same quarters with them with the place having only one bathroom. C'mon how could we stay there? So I agree with Ma'am Nora's decision.. She had us transfer to the other part of the quarters where the girls of the other two sections were staying.

November 25

I stayed in Bianca and the others' room. In there, we were eleven and slept on only 6 beds hihi it was fun :> We ate lots of snacks and made lots of confessions! Y'all know how girls are hihihi Elaiza was the first one to fall asleep. Precious and I became busy talking about our crushes =)) and I made a stupid promise that I would do something crazy before we leave and so I did but that's another story. We fell asleep before 2am. I woke up at 5am. I sat up and saw that there were only five of us remaining in the room. The others were already out and getting ready for our morning schedule. We geared up for hiking. Hihihi. Had our exercise and warm ups. Then we set off to trail. Woooo. It was a loooong and tiriiing walk but it was fun! :> The sky was so mesmerizing :) at 8 o'clock, we had our breakfast! :D We were instructed to go to the activity hall once again for the demo something blah blah at 8:30. We went back to our rooms. The beds... we were tempted by them! Hahaha I lied down my bed at 8:25. =))))) the next thing I knew was waking up and looking a my watch realizing it was already 9:50pm! Like..omg =))) I peeked at the window and saw students outside. Great. We missed the session. =)) We slept well hahah hihih then I went back to bed but Kass came in and told us that we should pack our things up. And it came to me.. we were about to leave. And that made me sad. :( So we took a bath. Ayun. We had lunch the boodle fight way at 11:30. We were eating while standing and didn't use spoons and forks. We used our hands. Precious and I finished eating faster than the other girls. We carried out our plan of.. yeaaa haha. And soooo, my secret mission was accomplished. Hihihihi after that, we went to our rooms and took our stuff out and were ready to leave the place :( for the last time, we went to the activity hall. Said goodbyes to the staff of the place and were ready to go visit FEU Silang. :) There, we interacted with the students. It was amazing! The students there were really friendly. They gave us a tour of the school. The school only had 'til 3rd year highschool though, I wonder why that is. Hmm anyway, I enjoyed myself there. :) At 3:15pm we were on our way home. :) :((( Arrived school at about 6:30 pm. Waited with Precious at school for my lil sister Alexa's arrival from their fieldtrip. Was back home at 8. :)


I realized and learned a lot of things during the trip. :) I was able to become closer with my batchmates :) made new friends and made stronger bonds with my bestfriends :"> It was a life changing experience for me. :) I can't stop thinking that I wanna repeat it again.. and then if I would be able to repeat it, I would treasure every second of it and won't waste any time. :(
Moments like those are moments you'd want to last longer than it should :'( Hihihi thank You Lord God wor that awesome awesome experience. :) You are such an awesome awesome God! :-*

Hihih looking forward to Monday :)

Tomorrow's another day.

Just got home with my family from the grocery store. I'm worn out. We bought food necessities 'cause classes resume tomorrow. Waaaa. I'm excited to learn new stuff again. (Woah, really? I am?) Haha. I wanna see my friends!! :) But I also want the sembreak to last longer. Hihihi as much as I want to study and to be with my friends, I still wanna stay at hoooome and read manga all day and night~ Hohoho. Dinner on the table is waiting for me. I'm full. I ate shawarma then after I finished eating it, ate bread roll then ice cream. It sure is nice to eat lots especially when the money you're using ain't yours. Hahaaaa. Okaaay~ Tonight's the last night to savor the sembreak happiness. K. -___- Bye bye sleepless nights and all-day sleeps!! :'(

College??? College!!!!

I still don't wanna think about leaving highschool but of course I have to think carefully about my future and of what course am I gonna take up. But... I'm not even sure yet of what school am I gonna go to. What if I don't pass University of the Philippines? I took the exam last August 6 and the results would come out on February. I'm so nervous about the results of my hard work. I wasn't able to give it my best shot but still, I tried hard. If I don't pass the UP exam, I hope I'd be able to get into the University of Santo Tomas (UST). I'd also take the entrance exam for Miriam College. The courses I chose were Biology and Special Education. Last September, when our grandfather stayed here in our house for almost 2 weeks (he lives in Negros Occidental together with our other relatives), I kinda woke up one day, stopped in front of our bookshelf filled with mostly law-related books, and said to myself, "I think... I wanna become a lawyer." I kept this to myself. Then on a Sunday of the first week of his stay here, we went to church together. I felt happy to have gone to church with someone again. Because I used to go with my sister, Raizza. She got pregnant so those days, I always went alone. Now that her baby, Kassie, is 3 months old already, she still doesn't go to church. We rarely go as a family anymore and that makes me sad :( so I now find it hard to go alone.. but I shouldn't feel that way. It's wrong, I know. That's why I've decided I'll go tomorrow! Alone or not, I will. :) Anyway, going back to when I was with my grandpa.. on the way home from church which was only a two-minute walk from home, I told him about the thought I ad of wanting to become a lawyer. Then he cheered me on. :) He said it'll be great if I did. And so yeaaa. I'm thinking about it. My mom said she'll also cheer me on. She always does. :) I don't know. I still don't know what I'd be taking up for sure. Biology, Special Education, or Law or any other course.. I have no exact idea. But.. whatever it will be.. I promise to do my best 'til the end! :) I will face my college life head on! :) 5 more months 'til I graduaaate from highschool :D

I am now a 16 year old girl. :)

  We celebrated my 16th birthday today. Mom's such a great cook, the best in the world for me! I am so full. I sure did eat a lot!! My tummy gets bigger and bigger every single day. Haha. Hmm.. It sure is tiring to eat. When I eat a lot, I feel sleepy afterwards. Hoho so now I aaaam sooo tired and my eyes are gonna close. But! I don't wanna sleep yet. I wanna stay awake 'til my birthday ends. :) Becuzzz today's special! I am a lady now! (or so I think) =)))) I'm so glad I have such an amazing family and tons of real friends! :) Thank You, Lord God for Your undying love and for the never ending blessing you give me! :) Ahhhh~ Only 5 months left 'til I leave highschool. :( I'm not ready yet... I don't wanna leave my highschool life :( k, so dramatic haha but really. I swear, the remaining days, I'll make each day memorable and I'll do what I wanna do 'cause I don't wanna regret anything :) anywayyyy! Happy 16th birthday, me! :)

ROYAL LOVE!

I just wanna say that I miss my Royal family so much :"> Royal is the name of our section last year back when we were still junior highschoolers. :D

*siiiiigh* I miss them all so much! I wanna go back to how it was before. It was so so so much better before. :(

Those who saw my blog haha sorry you had to see what I write in here =))

Denise Peji
as you can see, she's holding a Royal cola. Shows how much she misses our Royal class :")

Cornelius Velasquez
Yea, he's sending you a text message right now =))

Regina Maliwat
Yea, she's looking at you haha

Theses three people saw my blog posts =))

Anyway, I... miss Royal so much! :) That's all~ hihihi

FEU-FERN III-Royal 2010-2011

Short. Hair.

A lot of people tell me that I shouldn't have gotten my self a haircut. And that my hair looked better when it was longer. Ehhhh. I kept telling them, "It's better this way. I feel more comfortable so you don't have to tell me it was better before. :)" But the truth is.. it hurts me every time they say it huhu. I feel the same way!! I think my hair was better before. But.. I just have to face the consequences of what I did haha I chose this. Why did I even have a haircut? Becaaause! I was!! Heartbroken :( not just with a guy but with my life as well. But I feel alright now. :) I won't won't won't fall in love ever again! <--- I've told this a million times already but failed to stop myself. Haha.

I'LL BE TURNING 16 IN ABOUT 3 HOURS!! :)
Ahhhhh~ 16 years of being single! Haha it feels great~

I'll be a good girl from now on. I promise You, Lord. :)

Crazier~

Everyday I'm shufflin'. K =)) Every single day I feel crazier and crazier. Haha I fave these feelings that I keep hiding... My mom noticed yesterday that I was being kinda girly or rather that I look so composed. I have one person I could talk to whenever and wherever that's why I have no reason to be lonely. He is God. :) But stil, how could I ignore him sometimes :( saying that I'm busy, etc.. what a lame reason. He has a lot in His hands too. But still.. He always has time for each and everyone of us. How could we not do the same for Him? :) *sigh* so I've decided that I will now write on my blog for Him, as a way of talking to him. I offer this post for Him. :)

Dear God,

How are You? Me, I'm fine. You know what's in my heart. What's truly in my heart, only You know it. Thank You for everything. Thank You for giving me a wonderful life. Thanks for giving me a life. :) I love You with all my heart!! :) You've given me everything I need. I'm sorry for being stubborn most of the time. Thank You for not giving up on me!! :)

Here's a picture of me before I got myself a haircut. :)

EDIE AIMEE OCTAVIANO

Here's another picture of me now that I have short hair naaa :)

EDIE AIMEE OCTAVIANO

Sembreak! :) (semester break)

We have a 11-day vacation!! :) Today's already the end of the 2nd term. I've just updated my Facebook status saying that I'll be sleeping in the morning then I'll be awake all night. Thaaaat was the plan. But I'm already sleepy and it's till 10:30 pm. I'm so laaame =)) The cultural presentation happened earlier. We won the "most energetic performance" award! :D At least we won something haha then the Science Club members were given freeee Krispy Kreme doughnuts! I was given too 'cause I was the program director waaah my name was especially mentioned during our teacher's closing remarks on the event. Haha I was so shyyy but very grateful for it. Yummm then my friend gave me leche flan. Then another friend of mine gave me 6 bars of Cloud 9 chocolates and 2 bars of Snickers! :) Yeyyyy this sembreak sure'll be sweet! :) I'll be turning 16.. 4 days left for me being a 15-year-old gal. Haha goodnight to all of you! Sleep well. Pray before you sleep :)

Everyday starts today. <--say whuuut? =)) Hi I'm Edie Aimee Chavez Octaviano

Hello! :) I'm not much of an active blogger but from now on, I'll try my best to be one. :) Hmmm. I'm so tired!! These days I haven't been sleeping much -___- At school, I always walk here and there, since last week 'til tomorrow 'cause I was appointed to be our school event's manager(?). =)) And at home, all I do is ea, watch TV with my family, and read manga or watch Japanese movies that's why I haven't had much sleep lately. Japanese movies are the best. They make me cry soooo much it breaks my heart, in a good way. They make me love falling in love innocently. Watching movies, just like reading books or hearing other people's experiences, add up on the way I view things. Japanese romance movies open my eyes to pure love and to the beauty of falling in love. :) Speaking of love, I... think I'm gonna grow old with no partner in life. I mean, I won't have a boyfriend, ever!!! -___- No boy can accept someone like me. What's a person like me, anyway? A person like me, is a person who doesn't hold back, and burps loudly even in public. =))) I'm the kind of girl who.. likes to play basketball rather than being in the school cheering team. I'm a girl who's fine with being all dirtied up 'cause of running and lying down on the field even when it's raining. I'm a girl who played wrestling, baril-barilan =)), Counter Strike, Diablo II, (and other computer games usually the guys play) more than girly stuff games as a child. But of course I've also tried playing with Barbie dolls, paper dolls and tried imagining cooking leaves and actually tasting them. =)) In short, I've always been a boyish girl who's always untidy. Always!! -___- So who'd like me, right? -___- There'll be no one, and if there will be, readers, they'll only be few, so I might as well pour my heart out on this. =)) I'M ALSO ONE OF THOSE GIRLS WHO SAY THEY DON'T NEED A MAN TO GO ON WITH LIFE 'CAUSE THEY'RE INDEPENDENT AND THEY SHOW EVERYONE THEY'RE STRONG.. WHEN DEEP INSIDE, THEY WANT A GUY WHO WOULD MAKE THEM FEEL LIKE THEY DON'T NEED TO PUT ALL THE WEIGHT OF THE WORLD ON THEIR SHOULDERS, SOMEONE THEY CAN TRUST,  SOMEONE WHO'D LISTEN TO ALL THEIR WORRIES, SOMEONE WHO'D ACCEPT THEIR IMPERFECTIONS AND SOMEONE WHO'D LOVE THEM WITH HIS WHOLE HEART.


Whoa. Did I just say thaaat? For reeeeal? Hahaha. Well, there you have it. That's Aimee Octaviano for you! ;) Ohh ohh ohh. I'm so excited for tomorrows event in our school~ We'll have the last day of the Soc-Sci Fest tomorrow. The last event will be.. *drum roll* =)) The Culminating Activity!! :D Each levels will perform a cultural dance presentation of the country assigned to them. I'm one of the dancers in our batch. We'll be dancing jive. ;) I wanna wear my costume already :)

Oh oh, also, tomorrow will be the last day of the 2nd quarter/term. Classes will resume on November 7, I think. Yeyyy :) I'll miss my friends at school~ So, I'll go home late tomorrow :>

My eyes are gonna close already.. I'm so tired. I just got home from practicing our dance and after that I played basketball with my best friends. I had fun! Goodbye for now, blog. :)

This isn't good. :( Somebody please help me :(

I know myself very well. I don't know what to do now. I wanna quit. I wanna let go of everything I have. I don't trust myself anymore. :( It hurts so much eh. To smile.. to laugh.. when deep down inside you're dying. :( I've thought a lot of times of giving up on my long awaited dream that suddenly came true, but now I'm thinking of letting it go. What do I do? Somebody please help me. :( What bothers me is that, I long so much for the Lord but  haven't made any effort of getting closer to Him. :( I've always kept my distance from people.. It may not seem like it but I really do. I always play safe. I always stay away from people whom I think might eventually hurt me someday, somehow. :-/ I'm so confuuuuused. I just wanna cry it out. I wanna shout! I wanna run and run and run and never come back. :( but I have to. I love my life right now.  I'm not regretting anything in the past. But there're just times when you wanna let go.. It's like.. I wanna start over. I want to not experience difficulties. Yes this is normal. In life, it's not always smooth-sailing. But.. it's just so hard. Too hard for me. I can't go on like this. :( Under the blue sky, I wanna run and run and never look back. :( This is probably the most emotional blog post I've written. :(

Hello! :)

These past few weeks have been very hard for me. :( I'm happy that the UPCAT's over and that he only thing I have to worry about it is the result whiiiich will be released on February pa. :( I hope I'll pass! -___- I really want to study in UP. -_- Ayoon. This week's exam week. Sinabayan pa ng deadline of submission of porjects that some were given last week only. Like, wth, one week project!! -_- Ayooon. I'm having troubles with my YFC presidency. :( Sometimes I think of giving up on everything----- my friends, family, studies, and God. :( Ayooon. What keeps me going is that the fact that He never left my side and He never will. >:D< I love You, Lord God. :) That's basically what I just want to say. :)

Another day! :D

Thank ou, Lord God, for giving me another day to live. :) Ayon, I'm done troubling over guy stuffs. =)) Imma focus on my studies. :) And I have all the reasons to be happy. My family and friends are always always always (paulit-ulit?) =)) there for me. :) Ayooon. Aim High, Aimee. Aim for UP! -corny. =)) Edi yon nga. I'm craving for sweets. :) Gusto ko ng Snickers!! Gusto ko ng Hershey's, Cadbury.. Lahat na -___-

Currently listening to http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SGBLiGFaddo&feature=related :) ayooon. :(
"I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.." :'( *heartbreak

JK! I've already decided na I won't trouble myself with those stuffs na pala. =)) Nooo! Nakaka-sad lang talaga ung song na yon. Also this one http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5KiuXwYMqOI&feature=related

:"D Ayooon Imma study later. :) As in later. =)) Tinatamad akoooo. Pero kailangan mag-aral!!
Gotta go now. ;;) Bbye! :-*

:(

Wanna experience the feeling of receiving a text message everyday that says: Good morning, Aimee :)

:(

Dear Crush...

Good morning! Hindi naman kita hinahabol ah. :-/ Kasi naman. Crush kita. Gusto ko lang naman ng McDo fries. =)) Rewind. Gusto ko lang naman maging close sayo kasi ggraduate na ako. -.- Masama ba gawin yon? Hayy bawal na ba ako magkagusto!! Bawat kilos ko hinuhusgahan. :( Sana hindi ka na lang taga-FEU para magawa ko lahat mapasakin ka lang. Potek =))) k. Ayon. Hindi mo rin naman mababasa 'to, kaya bwaha. Ang sakit talaga ng nalaman ko na ganon pala tingin mo sakin. :'( Hayy bbye!
-Stalkerish =))))
July 25, 2011
9:24 am

-Monster Lala to Coco

Realization.

Hello! :) A new baby has arrived our lovely home. She's such an angel!! :"> <3 I love her. Her name is Kara Aloysia Soleil Octaviano Taplah. :D She's sooo cute, just like her aunt, me. Hihihi :">

Anyway, I've just arrived home from reviewing for the UPCAT. I'm so tired! But I had fun with Elaiza. We went to church together :D Precious wasn't able to go with us because she's in Nueva Ecija with her family! :) Ayoooon. Today, I've realized a lot of things. :) I don't need a man to satisfy myself. Haha all I need is God. But there's still that feeling of hope eh. That feeling na someday darating rin. And yes, it will. He will come. In God's time. :D I have to focus on other things :)

Kassie was born last Tuesday, July 19, 2011. :) That day, while I was in the hospital room, waiting for my sister, I watched  the movie My Sister's Keeper. It was such an awesome movie! :((( The next best thing to The Passion of Christ. :'( Because of it, I had a new perspective on some things. We can't stop death. But with death, something good can come out of it. We should carry on. But the people we lost and the memories we had with them and the lessons we learned from them will always stay in our hearts. :) After I've watched the movie, Ellysa and I's lives really changed! It really had a huuuuge impact on the viewers talaga eh. I even thought of doing charity works. Which I've wanted to do for so long.. All the lessons in life, seems like it was all put into one piece of artwork. Kaya ayon, I really recommend the movie My Sister's Keeper. ;)

I super wanna share it lang. =)) Ayon!
I'm sleepy. Goodnight! Sleep well  >:D<
Don't forget to pray, Aimee! ;;)

Hello! :)

It has been a long time since I've blogged. :D Edi ayon ngaaaa. Senior life! So tiring but fun at the same time~ :) I really wanna study in UP. So I'm really hoping to be accepted!! I have to pass the exam! I'm so scared to! :( Only 4 weeks left before the UPCAT. I have to cram like yea. :-/ Right now, passing the exam's my priority. I really really really really want to be accepted in UP!!! -_- Okay, paulit-ulit? =)) :( I'm thinking of staying at school 'til 5 or 6 after dismissal time to study!  :) With my classmate, DK. :D After studying, I'll feel fine 'cause I'll be seeing the guy whom I have a crush on on the field. :"> Hihihih speaking of that guy, I confessed to him last Friday and it was my very first confession in my whole 15 years of existence!! :O I was trembling with fear, literally. I practiced what I would say a ton of times but when I was in the moment, I was stuck. Reeeeally stuck. He said it was okay for me to like him. Good thing it is 'cause I just don't know how to stop these feelings. OMG IS THIS ME =)))))) anyway! Me and my giiiiirlfriend had a deal of having alone time for God. :) Every 5am and 6pm, we give our time to the Lord. 10 or (hopefully) more minutes of praying, talking to Him! :D yeyy! It's a good start. A good start to build a closer relationship with Him. Right? :)

School school school~ I don't know how to face 'the guy' tomorrow. I hope it won't be awkward to see each other after the weekend and after I confessed to him last Friday =)) hmm. -_- I wanna go to school already! Can't wait to see my girlfriends~ :> I wanna study!! (for real, LOL) no, really really! =)) I have to sleep early. 'Cause the early bird catches the early worm. AHAHAHHAHAHHAHHAHAHA makes no sense. So bbye now! :-*